Today is Leanne's burial day. She had her wake and service on Tuesday. She was cremated yesterday.
I have a little time this morning so thought I would write down some of my thoughts.
First of all thanks to bloggers who have sent me your well wishes and prayers. It really really means a lot.
I am not a very good writter- I am not the smartest person out there so I have always been afraid of my gramatical errors and spelling error (dont even know enough about the technical stuff on this to know if there is spell check) I am going to not worry about that anymore. I am going to just be myself and try to say what I think in honor of my sister and her attitude about being herself, too bad if people know I am not that smart.
Londell put a quote on his blogg:
"The body does not want you to do this. As you run, it tells you to stop but the mind must be strong. You always go too far for your body. You must handle the pain with strategy … . It is not age; it is not diet. It is the will to succeed."
~Jacqueline Gareau, Boston Marathon, (Champion in 1980)
I am thinking of this today because it is how I feel - in a non running way. Running has trained me to have gotten through lifes other obsticals. The 4 weeks of being a hospice caretaker, the two weeks of sleeping a Leanne's apt, waking up every few hours to administer meds then going to work the next day, changing dressing when I normally hate anything icky like that, dealing with other people when you would rather run away.
I don't know if anybody else will get this analogy because unlike running its not like I can just stop or DNF the real life game.

Long 4 weeks

My sister Leanne died very early this morning. I can't even think of what to write except she is finally free.
One of my other sister's 16 daughter died last Thurday her funeral was last monday. It all does not feel real.

TCM weekend

I am always excited about this marathon since it was my first and this weekend will be my 5th consecutive. This is the first one I did not put in specific training for it so I don't know what to expect.
Last year it was hot and croweded and I thought it was at it's capacity so it will be interesting to see with the increase in runners if it will be any worse.
I am looking foreward to seeing all the people I know running and spectating.
This year I am also planning to do the Dianna Pierce 1 mile race with my step granddaughter who is 7 years old on Saturday. My friend Linda is planning on running with her 5 yr old daughter too. It should be fun.
My sister is doing OK, actually we thought she would be gone by now (I know that sounds harsh) but averages are averages is what her Doc said. She cannot move however at all without alot of pain. Her mind is still sharp and her sense of humor is still intact for the most part. I am learning alot from her.
I am also learing alot about control. Everybody wants it- nobody wants to give up any of it.